Morning all!Well here I am on day 7! Yesterday was fine but day 5 was a bit of a struggle. I don't know why but I was at work and I just wound myself up thinking "all these people are here buying wine and I'm not allowed, that's so unfair why am I doing this to myself wah wah wah". Realistically, looking back on it, I just wanted a glass of wine and was trying to give myself an 'out'. I didn't want to be strong, I didn't want to stick to my word, I just wanted a damn glass of Syrah. Even at the time, though, I think I knew deep down that it was a decision. If I had gone home with wine, it wouldn't have been me being overpowered by my urges, it would have simply been me making the decision to drink wine and wallow in my bad mood. So instead I decided to go and join my partner and his friends at the bowling alley. I really didn't feel like socialising but it also meant I wouldn't be sitting at home feeling sorry for myself! I ended up actually having a really great night and once I was distracted from my bad mood I didn't miss the wine at all, and I woke up the next day at 6.30, clear headed, and went out for breakfast with my man :) I'm beginning to really enjoy this feeling and although my eating hasn't been exactly a Heidi Klum diet this week, I'm feeling really happy and healthy, and tonight I'm heading out to my Mums for the night which always feels very 'healing', and I get lots of animal cuddles from the pets. University starts again on Monday and I'm officially in my final year of my degree (I graduate half way through next year) so now is the time for me to really crack down on my studies and with the amount that I work (4-5 days a week) I don't have any time to waste on hangovers!
Have a wonderful day, all.xx BP.S. as a sidenote - One week in and my little blog has 280 views?! I know that's probably not even a huge amount compared to others but wow! :)
You brain will do everything in its power to convince you to keep drinking.. it will feel like your normal thoughts but it is your addictive thoughts.. separate out from those thoughts and see them as your sly acquaintance who does not have your best interests at heart…Shut them down..!! they will go away eventually...keep going you are doing so well! Early days yet but I have great faith in your abilities… xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Mrs D :) I like to think of my drinking cravings the same as I think of food cravings... like, I love chocolate cheesecake and blue cheese but do I eat them every day? No I dont, even though I would really love to, theyre not good for me! Same for wine :) Thankyou for the lovely comment, your support means a lot to me
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